Wishes...

            

   

               I wish you could see. I wish you could see what you are doing to him. I wish you could see how that person changed their mindset for you. They no longer care about anything but you. And you don’t care. You don’t care that you are slowly killing the person you love and the people he loves? You are also slowly killing them. You are giving them more than they could handle and you don’t care. I wish you could see that it isn’t about you but it’s about them. I wish you could see…

                I wish you could hear. I wish you could hear all of the bad things you say to me. All of those hurtful words coming out of your mouth shock me. I wish you could hear the tears that I cry at night after you get done yelling at me. It makes me wonder why you are so happy with him but so unhappy with me. I know it’s hard for you to hear, but not in this way. I wish you could hear…

                I wish you could talk. I wish you could talk to me again. Like old times when I used to get so happy seeing your name in my phone. Not a happy teenage girl way, but a happy sister way. I knew I could always come to you for advice on everything and anything and also give advice to you. You opened up to me and then she came along. When she came back, you shut down. You unwillingly left me and stopped giving me advice. I wish you could talk…

A few days ago I sat at my house alone. My parents were out of town and my friends had other plans. I ate lunch alone, paid for my own haircut, and drove around alone. I thought a lot that day about different things. I thought about how great life is and then about the downsides. Life can take different twists and turns. The world is a big place. It’s a place that can be sweet and sour all at one time. It’s filled with dreams, evil, tears, smiles, and wishes. Take the time to look around and love the world. People can come and go in a heartbeat, so don’t take life for granted. Thank the lord, and love the people who surround you.